It’s frustrating, the gap between what is and what should be. But it seems like it’s not frustrating enough to do that much about it. I’ve lived with a sense of apathy, boredom, and ‘meh’ in relation to God for too long. He has become like a high school friend. The relationship is superficial and surface, there’s no real need for it, there isn’t a whole lot of communication or extended time together and if He’s not popular I’m not about to associate myself with Him…
I’m not proud of it but I think that’s where I’m at. Perhaps that’s where I’ve been for a while…? I know something needs to change but I’m tired of the cycle of motivation, action, plateau, inaction, guilt, motivation, action,… It’s just stupid! But is there another way?
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